Rape Fantasies...

Lately I have been having rape fantasies a lot more. I think I'm at a point where I'm in desperate need of being submitted to male, animalistic urges. Here's what Wikipedia had to say:

A rape fantasy or a ravishment is a sexual fantasy in which a person imagines themselves being coerced, raped, or otherwise forced into a sex act. Some people enjoy the feeling of sexual submission, while others like imagining themselves as so irresistible and unattainable that their attacker must let loose their animalistic instincts. Those who have forced sex fantasies seldom wish to actually be forced into sex. The difference between a fantasy and a real life situation is that in the fantasy, the person remains in full control of what happens and maintains their power. It can be feeling of domination or submission also, as someone fantasies of forcing someone, or being forced, to have sex

Sounds about right. I don't want to rape a man though. In my fantasy, I'm at home, about ready to get into the shower or about to come out and BAM! Out of nowhere I'm attacked and forced to do sexual acts from giving head and damned near gagging to having to take one hell of a thrashing.

I cannot really pinpoint when this fantasy came to be, but I do remember that a friend of mine mentioned she had one when I was 17 years old, and I felt relieved that I wasn't the only one. I may have had it even before then.

This is why I could never be anything but hetero because what attracts me to men is the knowledge that when shit gets going, they can be brutish, wild and stronger than me.

My boyfriend is a kind guy and is understanding. I keep telling him and he gets close, but I can tell that he is holding himself back.

I know you are reading this MISTER. When I tell you that I feel like being engaging in a rape fantasy tonight, then I need you to think about something I did or something someone did at work to piss you off and then take that crap out on me. Capiche?