Finally!!!!

We finally went to a hotel this weekend. I think it was a valuable experience (in more ways than one! *giggle*) and it really helped me to gain perspective in our relationship.

We stayed at a lovely hotel in the city. We had the kids with my mom and went to dinner, went to play some games and came back to make love. He did everything right. He had me going before he even actually started. I was that turned on. We've been together for a few years now, and I still have a crush on him. I love his presence. I can't be around him enough.

A few months back, I wrote about an issue I had where I wanted us to go to a hotel for a weekend getaway and Mister did not want to go. I took it personally. I didn't understand why he didn't want to get away with me.

We got into a little bust up because he's been tired lately and he finally put things in motion for us to go this weekend. He was giddy as hell by the time we got to the hotel and kept talking about it last night when we got home. It turns out I was wrong for taking it personally. What I came to realize is he hadn't done anything like that before and didn't get it. It had nothing to do with me. I apologized for being so short-sighted. I honestly feel terribly for taking it to that level. I shouldn't have given up so easily. I should've just kept it moving and showed him a good time. All things happen for a reason.

I have taken a vow to seriously evaluate the reasons I get upset about when it comes to Mister. I need to understand that we are very different people and I've seen different things than he has. I've been a lot of places. I shouldn't be so eager to push him in the water then jump in after. I should jump in first and invite him in if he's afraid or cautious.

I also realized that the main reasons I tend to blow up over the hotel situation have to do with me being hard on myself. I think that stems from some insecurities I have and I need to quit with that.

My lesson learned: Be more understanding and nurturing and less aggressive and quick to jump to conclusions.